Secrets

It is Wednesday evening, September 5, 2018 @ 20:57:15 and I am nearing the 1.3 ATA required to begin the 90 minute daily dive. I am still not tolerating the pressure in my left ear as well as I would like. I am giving my left ear a lot of my attention and speaking kind words to my precious ear. I am blessing it. I am reminding my left ear of my appreciation for its most excellent talent in caring for me. I am so sure that my left ear likes hearing me speak to it. I know that the sensitivity in my left ear will ease because I am attending to both of my ears and they both like me!

I am beginning the dive right now. We are cooling the air hoses with more ice and cold water. They seem to like the bath they are getting. Most of all, the cabin’s atmosphere is more pleasant to be in. I tried to drink water as the chamber was inflating. It seemed to help with my left ear popping. I knew that! Swallowing is important to equilibrium.

Secrets, yes secrets. What do you do with your darkest secrets? Do you trust anyone with the information and the terrible emotions that accompany them? Or do you shove them down so deep that every now and then you wonder if they really happened or were they a nightmare? It is the nature and plan of darkness to not let any light or fresh air or freedom into its place of captivity. Watch out. Take the best care of yourself that you can.

Secrets. What about the silent secrets of your heart? Do you share them with anyone? Are you embarrassed to share them with even your spouse or your best friend? Do you feel qualified or good enough to receive such blessings? Do you have your own “bucket list” of hopes and dreams that you have not shared with anyone because they are petty or unimaginable in their opinion? What’s inside of you that you would love to let out but fear holds you back from expressing yourself? Is your Secret a blueprint or a plan that seems so out-of-the-world that you hide it away and only visit it now and then? I speak FREEDOM to you! Love yourself. Take perfect care of yourself and find all of the ways to enjoy life.

Well, here I sit revealing so much of what is inside of me. I’m an open blog!! I wonder if it really matters to anyone else but myself and yet I continue to write. It is cathartic. It is revelatory. It is relieving. Its me!

Secrets. I have Secrets. I am positive that everyone does. I have deep and profound secrets. I have terrible dark secrets. I have delightful secrets that make me smile. I have hopes and dreams and plans and desires that will not be held captive by fear and doubt and insecurity. I want to live a fully Suz life. And I thank you for sharing in this part of my journey. Don’t stop believing. That’s a song isn’t it? Of course it is. I hear Journey singing it right now. “Don’t stop believing…Hold on to that feeling!”

I am more than half-way through my dive. I am going to stop writing because I want to sit back and relax in here. I haven’t done that yet in the chamber. My left ear is able to open more than it has in a while so I am really happy. The cabin pressure is awesome. The O2 is great. I am comfortable and cool. YES! Yes, I am!

Take care,

Suz