Burp!

Good Sunday evening, October 21, 2018 @ 20:26:45 MT. I am in my chamber. I am fully inflated. The valve just opened to regulate the ATA as it should. I have my mask on and all is good.

Tonight’s blog is Burp! Excessive burps began following my fall at work 2 years, 7 months and 7 days ago. I have terrible belching noises that come from deep inside of my digestive system. It is very unpleasant. There were days in the first year when I would make that terrible sound a few hundred times a day. They have returned with vengeance since being away last week. I took Dr Hughes advice but my system is still messed up. I would prefer not to eat at all but that too would produce the painful belches. Dr Hughes has me sipping water with organic powdered ginger in it. I’m sure that my body got so messed up and has not recovered. I have read a lot about the gut/brain connection and I have my hand raised….Yes, that’s me!

Burp! It sure is not fun burping with this mask on. D is used to my nasty sounds. Am I glad about that! I have finally found a medical doctor that will not just look at my current symptoms and prescribe what reps from big pharma have convinced him will work. He is looking at me as a uniquely complete (in an incomplete way) person. All of me matters and all of me works together to manage my entire being. Thank you Dr Hughes.

Burp! I did it again! What a predicament! I needed to take a nap today but it just didn’t work out. I was able to recline and put my sleep mask on this afternoon but it was only for a couple of minutes. I am grouchy and just want to go to bed. So following this dive that’s where I will be heading.

I am trying to learn how to take care of myself more tenderly. I am a great bedside nurse. I am a good grandmother. I watch over D and the dogs too but I neglect to honor myself. I see now that this is my time. I will learn from each day. I will find ways to better manage my very sensitive tummy, my delicate head, and my healing foot. Most of all, I hope to learn to better manage my complicated emotional well-being.

Are you taking the best care of yourself? Do you dismiss your needs for the needs of others? Are you willing to look in your bathroom mirror and tell yourself “I Love You!” It is time dear friends for each of us to better love ourselves.

Burp! I am ending now. It is too uncomfortable with the mask on and my abdomen feeling like it is on fire.

Thank you for your kind concern for me. I feel your love.

Suz