It’s A Brand New Day

Good Saturday Evening, January 5, 2019 @ 17:17:17. That’s wild! I didn’t plan that! 17:17:17 … So I looked it up in the Bible. The number 17 symbolizes “overcoming the enemy” and “complete victory.” YES! I will embrace the three! One is for me. Two is for Dennis. Three is for our future.

I chose It’s A Brand New Day before I started writing this blog. With the three 17’s I am convinced that my theme and the revelation are correct. I had no idea where I was heading but I certainly do now.

Scripture means so much to me. I enjoy studying the Hebraic, Greek and Latin roots of the rich words of the bible. Our English language does not do proper justice to those meanings. I rely on many translations as I delve deeply into my studies.

1 Corinthians 13 is the famous chapter about LOVE. Look what I just discovered…LOVE IS 1) Patient 2) Kind 3) Does Not Envy 4) Does Not Boast 5) Is Not Proud 6) Does Not Dishonor Others 7) Is Not Self-Seeking 8) Is Not Easily Angered 9) Keeps No Record Of Wrongs 10) Does Not Delight In Evil 11) Rejoices With The Truth 12) Always Protects 13) Always Trusts 14) Always Hopes 15) Always Perseveres 16) Never Fails AND 17) And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But The Greatest Of These Is love. WOW WOW WOW! 17 characteristics of LOVE! I will take that!

I am on a mission to overcome the enemy who tried to take me out in the womb, at eighteen days old, at six years old, during the years of 12-21, and now with the TBI I suffered nearly three years ago.

Dennis has a debilitating issue that requires spinal surgery this month. He has been so healthy all of our years for which we are very grateful. But now he is in pain, discomfort, and he is irritable.

Our future relies on employability as social security benefits do not entirely pay the bills. We have nothing saved, no 401K, no retirement. We need a financial miracle. And how is that possible in our own strength? It isn’t. I am not able to find a part-time job. Dennis has been on medical leave from his employer since September. How much longer are they going to keep his position open?

My recovery requires that I participate in caring for myself well. There are multiple tasks  I must do and there are more to add soon. I must do these dives daily or at least five days a week. They take between 1.5 – 2.5 hours to complete them. I have to eat properly. That means no dairy, no gluten, no extra sugar, and reducing my intake of starchy foods like pasta, rice and potatoes. I need to drink non-chlorinated water preferably with electrolytes. I take a whole lot of supplements daily too. I need to walk daily. So I do my share of walking up and down our stairs here at home now that it is winter and has been very cold outside. I listen to music that is supposed to calm something in my brain. I will be finally purchasing the two pieces of therapeutic appliances that will benefit my brain waves and help heal the mitochondria in my brain too. I take a supplement for headaches or resume a ten-day course of intranasal diluted insulin to help with lessening the headaches. I try to stimulate my thinking and problem solving by doing Sudoku, crocheting, puzzle making, and trying to remember to do the tasks that lumosity has for me on a daily basis. I work on calming my anxiety and taking restful naps when I can. I still have nights where sleep does not come easily. These are tasks tha have to be attended to daily. I have to be aware of what I need to do throughout the day so I am not stressed too much before bedtime at not completing one task or another.

Dennis has been taking prescription medications to reduce the nerve pain in his back. They have played with his blood sugars and really messed with Dennis’ mind. His blood sugars must be low for the surgery to take place. He sleeps on and off throughout the day because his sleep at night is either interrupted by me or by his discomfort. He is having difficulties walking upstairs and I worry for him. The waiting is not easy for him at all.

It’s A Brand New Day! I have to keep that mindset. Jesus told us that we are not to worry about tomorrow because today has enough troubles of its own. I surely understand that! Scripture tells me that joy always comes each morning. I have not found a lasso large enough to capture every day’s joy yet, but I will keep on trying. Our bills and our needs are overwhelming me. I do not want to talk with Dennis about it because he feels responsible for any failures, shortcomings, or errors we experience financially. And then I remember…..

God is our Father. He chose us to be His. We are seated with Him in heaven. He prepares a banqueting table for us in the presence of our enemies. He cares for the birds of the air and the flowers in the fields…what more will He do for us? He strengthens the feeble body. He makes our crooked ways straight. He care for my worries and frets and needs. He gives us our daily bread. He is our Salvation, our God, our Father, our friend, our Strength, our Hope, our Helper, our Peace, our King….and so much more. Every word that I read in the bible is His word to me and Dennis and our future. God tells me not to be afraid. He reminds me of His Power and Majesty and Promises every day. We are never alone. I am reminded right now of the Footprints In The Sand poem that was popular in the 80’s and 90’s. Let me pull that up for you…

One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.

This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
“Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You’d walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”

He whispered, “My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.”

It’s A Brand New Day! I am promised that by my God. WOW! As I have said in previous posts…I believe, help my unbelief LORD.

I am nearly done with my dive. It has been an honor to share what is on my heart today. Thank you for listening to me and for thinking of my precious husband. Thank you for standing in the gap for both of us through prayer and all of your kind words. Together we will overcome the enemy! Together we will have complete victory!

Hugs,

Suz

P.S. These are a part of the lyrics of a song I found online. By Joshua Radin

“It’s a brand new day
The sun is shinning
It’s a brand new day
For the first time
In such a long long time
I know
I’ll be OK”