Sleeplessness!

Good Saturday, May 18, 2019 @ 4:21pm MT.  I am secure in my chamber. The guage is working well. All systems are go! My small battery operated essential oil diffuser is blowing sweet frankincense at my neck. I am enjoying a watered-down cool bulletproof coffee and some raw seeds and nuts. My cannula is providing me with oxygen. And most of all, I am relaxed and comfortable sitting in my safe place. It is very good!

Sleeplessness!

The worst thing in the world is to try to sleep and not to.   F. Scott Fitzgerald

I want to sleep but my brain won’t stop talking to itself.   unknown

Those are quotes I found online. They say exactly what I am feeling today.

Sleep disturbance is common following traumatic brain injury (TBI).  My brain injury occurred on Sunday, March 13, 2016. It has been three years and two months…thirty eight months… Where is my circadian rhythm? Come back…do not leave me…I want to sleep well…tonight? Hopefully!

I have recently enjoyed sleeping more regularly, but there are those nights that remain where I am wide awake and unable to fall asleep until dawn. This was certainly my experience last night!

Sleeplessness!

How about you? Are you frustrated with your sleep patterns? Are you sleeping too much or not enough? Do you take naps to compensate? Or do you tough it out the following day realizing exhaustion by noon?

I am convinced that there is a sleep demon that steals our rest. It must be fat with pleasure. It must laugh at us when we try our hardest to fall asleep. Dang it! This has to stop! I need rest! I need the healing that occurs in sleep.

Sleeplessness!

Trust me, I am not grumbling. I value the importance of a regular sleep cycle. I also feel that joy is easily robbed from us when we struggle with sleep issues.

So……

Last night I chose to pray. I prayed for every person I thought of. I thanked God for giving me the opportunity to TURN AGAINST that sleep demon. I saw that I could benefit each person I prayed for. I found myself inside of God’s mighty fortress of protection while I prayed for everyone by name.  In the early hours, I woke D up from my sincere prayers for others. I felt the prayers flowing from me like a river. I was eager for Holy Spirit to help me pray. It was as if He and I were having a holy prayer time together.

I finally fell asleep when I realized that D had put his hand on my hip. It brought me such comfort and I whispered “It Was A Good Night, My Lord. Thank You, Father. Thank You, Jesus. Thank You, Holy Spirit. Amen.”

I slept four hours this morning. I woke tired and a bit exhausted but I was also invigorated with delight at slaying that sleep demon. The sword of the Spirit is The Word Of God!

Yes, I am tired now. I have a slight frontal headache. And I am doing what I know to do to take care of me. I am chambered. I am experiencing the pressure and receiving the oxygen I need to recover!

D reminded me of the peacefulness I experience while I am in my chamber! What an excellent idea! Another excellent dive has now ended.

Blessings to all!

Thank you for sharing my dive with me today.

Hugs,

Suz