BEFORE I BECAME ME!

Psalm 139: ¹³ You formed my innermost being, shaping my delicate inside
and my intricate outside,
and wove them all together in my mother’s womb. ¹⁴ I thank you, God, for making me so mysteriously complex!
Everything you do is marvelously breathtaking.
It simply amazes me to think about it!
How thoroughly you know me, Lord!
¹⁵ You even formed every bone in my body
when you created me in the secret place,
carefully, skillfully shaping me from nothing to something.
¹⁶ You saw who you created me to be before I became me!
Before I’d ever seen the light of day,
the number of days you planned for me
were already recorded in your book.

D and I returned home late last night from Denver. Our trip home was a tiring 6 hour drive due to road work on I 70 at Idaho Springs (gold was discovered here in 1859).

The alarm woke us at 6am. We were dressed, coffee’d, packed and checked out of the hotel by 8am. My appointment was scheduled for 9:10. We sat outside the Dr office for a half hour before we were met by my angel (NR, I love your sweet kindness) and her amazingly strong and compassionate husband. They had an appointment just before mine.

We were called into the exam room and waited not too long before my Dr. came in wearing an amazing Christmas outfit. He was dressed in the most festive Christmas suit, tie, mask and red Christmas ornament socks! He’s the most genuine Dr. I have ever met. Dr. Hepworth began by telling us how sad it is for him to be a presenter at a conference and basically laughed down by his so-called peers, at the procedures to help people like me.

I have a CSF leak. I need a surgical repair just as soon as it can be booked at the hospital. I may have to wait until February. I will know when the surgery is scheduled in a week or so. The entire repair was outlined by Dr. Hepworth and then explained further by his nurse. His nurse made an appointment for me to have another CT scan; this time of the sinuses only, at noon before we left Denver for home. Dr. Hepworth needs to prepare for my specific fracture repair. He will also repair the deviated septum and correct the right side where a thickening of mucosa occurred to compensate for the CSF leakage on the left side.

Here is a short video that is available online from Dr. Hepworth. This piece was created at the hospital that I was treated.

BEFORE I BECAME ME!

…the number of days you planned for me were already recorded in your book.” This line in Psalm 139 has always been in my thoughts. All of the troubles, hurts, scars, and goodness are all known by God and HE is not unaware of the struggles and the joys I have lived….all of my life!

Dr. Hepworth also confirmed that the elevated protein in my CSF indicates a priority in getting the fracture repaired. Elevated protein in CSF but not in the blood is an indicator of Multiple Sclerosis or other conditions. Dr. Hepworth also said that once the surgery is successfully performed that the progression of MS is abated. There are other conditions that can also be considered with elevated protein in CSF but this seems to be consistent with the symptoms I am experiencing, coupled with the symptoms I experience with a history of multiple TBI’s.

God knew what I would be experiencing today and what is in my future. HE also sent HIS angels to watch over me. HE Is Always With You and Me!

Thank you for sharing this adventure with me. I will continue writing tomorrow.

God bless us everyone!

Hugs always,

Suzanne