19 O God, come and slay these bloodthirsty, murderous men!
For I cry out, “Depart from me, you wicked ones!”
20 See how they blaspheme your sacred name
and lift up themselves against you, but all in vain!
21 Lord, can’t you see how I despise those who despise you?
For I grieve when I see them rise up against you.
22 I have nothing but complete hatred and disgust for them.
Your enemies shall be my enemies!
December 30, 2020; 13:53 MT
Since my last post, I have been in the deepest place of hurt and pain that I have ever experienced at any one time. The verses above truly reflect what I have been dealing with deep inside of me. I truly believe that God is present right here, right now, in this very moment to guide me into His safe keeping.
I have been reviewing the years of loss and it is so overwhelming. All of the “why’s” and “how could you’s” and “no…stop hurting me” have been haunting me. They have been leading me into and through the painful events, post events and future hurts that in such unspeakable ways led me through my entire life…to this point.
I am at a crossroads. I am at the end of myself. I’m hoping for HIS presence to guide me into every promise HE has spoken to my spirit, soul and body. HE truly will encompass me with HIS LOVE! I believe…Help me LORD…heal my umbelief.
LORD, I GRIEVE!
Hugs always,
Suz
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