Early this morning, before the sun rose, our truck was packed, ready for us to travel to Denver. I am required to have a negative COVID test result 72 hours prior to being admitted to the hospital. My two day hospitalization begins with check-in early Monday morning. Dennis will drop me off at the admitting door. No visitors are permitted in the hospital. I’m really not dealing with the emotions I am feeling regarding that!
Our week two days later in follow-up with my physician to get the results of the procedures I received. I am hoping that my physician will help us make sense of this terrible journey I have been on for most of my life.
We woke this morning at 6am to a very light powder snow on the ground. By the time we left our house, the snow was gently falling. Had it been that gentle the entire drive to Denver, both of us would have enjoyed our dream dialogues we usually have on long drives.
Within a few miles we were faced with heavy snow, white outs, crazy stupid drivers, slippery icy roads, a very wet interstate and a 1 hour wait in traffic because of a multiple car pileup a half mile east of the Eisenhower tunnel. We experienced three major slides with one of them ending on the other side of the highway and multiple slip adjustments. A normal trip to Denver takes us 3 hours at most. Today’s drive took over 6 hours to complete.
The hospital has a tent set up outside the front door for COVID testing for scheduled patients only. I had to be onsite between 10am and 3pm. We located the line of cars at 1:53pm. We were that close to missing the mark!
Following the very simple swab of both nostrils, I melted down. I was confused and filled with fear. All of the tension I felt had finally dribbled out of me. I needed to find our temporary home away from home….quickly.
Somehow we found this hotel. It is in the middle of downtown Denver. One way roads, bus lanes, tall buildings everywhere (including the Denver Mint and the State Capital building), no decent parking except for those in inconvenient locations, constant screeching ambulances and many homeless people hiding from the falling snow, j-walking and getting into anyone’s business. We have removed everything visible inside of our vehicle so it is not a temptation to break into.
Yes! This is most difficult for me. Noise triggers every symptom I struggle with. Our room is located at the end of the building and seems to overhang the sidewalks below making it difficult for me to understand how the frantic traffic will not scale the face of this place and end up in our room.
I have put everything we brought with us in it’s proper place. I have my pj’s on. I finally succeeded in getting the room heated. I placed my weighted blanket over the bed. Finally I am in the safety of my familiar.
Dennis just returned from Whole Foods grocery with fresh foods for us to enjoy.
HOW DID WE GET HERE?
Obviously, I have described our day fairly well but I really have not answered the question properly. Dennis and I got here by God’s grace. There’s absolutely no other way to explain our individual and our married journeys. Both Dennis’ and my childhood wounds brought us together (stray dogs somehow find one another). Every one of our years together have been lived with us attempting to grow out of our past and into our future.
Two years ago, Dennis and I realized that he put my engagement ring on my finger 48 yrs ago. This is a good opener…and a perfect closer. Stay tuned…….
We are going to explore Psalm 139 this week. I have attached it below. Please take a moment to read it. Yes, it sounds like God inspired King David to write it just for me…..and you too.
Hugs Always,
Suzanne
Psalm 139 For the Pure and Shining One
(The Passion Translation)
King David’s poetic song
1 Lord, you know everything there is to know about me.
2 You perceive every movement of my heart and soul,
and you understand my every thought before it even enters my mind.
3–4 You are so intimately aware of me, Lord.
You read my heart like an open book
and you know all the words I’m about to speak
before I even start a sentence!
You know every step I will take before my journey even begins.
5 You’ve gone into my future to prepare the way,
and in kindness you follow behind me
to spare me from the harm of my past.
With your hand of love upon my life,
you impart a blessing to me.
6 This is just too wonderful, deep, and incomprehensible!
Your understanding of me brings me wonder and strength.
7 Where could I go from your Spirit?
Where could I run and hide from your face?
8 If I go up to heaven, you’re there!
If I go down to the realm of the dead, you’re there too!
9 If I fly with wings into the shining dawn, you’re there!
If I fly into the radiant sunset, you’re there waiting!
10 Wherever I go, your hand will guide me;
your strength will empower me.
11 It’s impossible to disappear from you
or to ask the darkness to hide me,
for your presence is everywhere, bringing light into my night.
12 There is no such thing as darkness with you.
The night, to you, is as bright as the day;
there’s no difference between the two.
13 You formed my innermost being, shaping my delicate inside
and my intricate outside,
and wove them all together in my mother’s womb.
14 I thank you, God, for making me so mysteriously complex!
Everything you do is marvelously breathtaking.
It simply amazes me to think about it!
How thoroughly you know me, Lord!
15 You even formed every bone in my body
when you created me in the secret place,
carefully, skillfully shaping me from nothing to something.
16 You saw who you created me to be before I became me!
Before I’d ever seen the light of day,
the number of days you planned for me
were already recorded in your book.
17–18 Every single moment you are thinking of me!
How precious and wonderful to consider
that you cherish me constantly in your every thought!
O God, your desires toward me are more
than the grains of sand on every shore!
When I awake each morning, you’re still with me.
19 O God, come and slay these bloodthirsty, murderous men!
For I cry out, “Depart from me, you wicked ones!”
20 See how they blaspheme your sacred name
and lift up themselves against you, but all in vain!
21 Lord, can’t you see how I despise those who despise you?
For I grieve when I see them rise up against you.
22 I have nothing but complete hatred and disgust for them.
Your enemies shall be my enemies!
23 God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart.
Examine me through and through;
find out everything that may be hidden within me.
Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares.
24 See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on,
and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting ways—
the path that brings me back to you.
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Do you have any tolerance for higher quality headphones that can deliver soaking praise by Joshua Mills and/or Steve Swanson? That may be a help. It has helped me in the past with road noise issues
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